I’ve got Butterflies!

I’ve got Butterflies!

I just registered for my half marathon — It’ll be bright and early Sunday September 6th, 2015.

It’ll be my first and I’m both determined and petrified.  (The butterflies in my tummy feel more like a stampede of elephants…)

Here’s why I’m worried, there’s a 3.5 hour time limit — I feel the pressure here and I don’t know why.

On my morning run, before I registered, I started panicking that my pace wasn’t good enough. Then the mean bean started — the doubtful subconscious voice that doesn’t think I’m good enough, strong enough, or worthy to call myself a runner — or a half marathon completer.  I didn’t think I should “waste” my money registering for a race that I’m not going to be fast enough to finish…

The first few minutes of my run were terrible. My body didn’t know what to do and I was trying to run faster than I normally do.

Then, when I was near tears, I had a thought. My goal should be to COMPLETE the half marathon… not to shoot for some goal time! It’s my first one and if I’m so freaked out by pace/timing that I push it too hard too fast, I won’t even finish!

So instead of listening to the mean bean inner doubter — I had a new focus… Be the caboose, but FINISH STRONG…

I came home, drank some water, and registered for the race.  (It’s through these Race 13.1 people)

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I have to keep reminding myself that it’s about doing something I’ve never done, challenging myself, and forgetting the rest. If I come in dead last, I’ll still have done something!!

New mantra — be the caboose, Finish STRONG!

Has anyone every finished a race last? Be proud fellow cabooses!

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